Cloudwatcher Yap

Yep that’s a new spur of the moment nick i’ve given myself! HAHAHA

I find that I like to just sit alone and think. Look around in silence and just reflect. Those times after runs when i just sit down, take off my shoes and just soak up the surroundings….its really peaceful. Think about all sorts of stuff. Seeing a small kid playing with his dad, lying on the track, chasing birds..wow. Clouds shifting slowly and you start wondering whether its the clouds really moving or whether its our earth that’s moving.

You know how there are some who love to prove how smart they are by solving a problem. I love to solve problems for the sake of using my mind to think. I see it as a challenge. Not really to prove anything. Ok maybe to myself for having overcome that challenge. And i realize i love doing it so much that I hardly like to listen to others  past the point when i think there’s enough info for me to get going and start solving the problem…which then…becomes another issue of having solved the wrong problem. Ya know how everything seems to make sense inside your head but when you type it out it just seems funny. This is another one of those things. HAHA

I think it true that singaporean youth have not been exposed enough to the real world to know what they would really love to do in the future. We don’t stand for anything, have no idea why we’re studying what we’re studying. And when we graduate, we land ourselves in a job we half-dislike but psycho ourselves into believing that everything’s gonna be alright. But it doesn’t. Most of the time. The common argument of working a few years in ANYTHING and then thinking of what you wanna do is pretty bullshit. Guys grad at 25. after a FEW years, the commitments start flying in. Some unlucky dudes probably like myself would still be busy clearing their loans and then hey, its time for some marriage plans or the like. No wonder our birthrate is so low. The environment is a huge factor. So anyways, once you’re engaged or the like, there’ll be lots of “noise” pressurizing you to stick with the semi-higher paying job which you start to dread going to every morning. And then….the moment comes when you wanna leave and do THAT job.

“OMG you left a 5k job to be a teacher?” or worse to be a creative at an agency. Which means….in actuality, few people eventually do what they really wanna do. There’s only so many tomorrows you can have. Expose yourself to the world. And fly. And…if you got some time, watch some clouds.